I just want to hear your voice say my name. I just want it to be my birthday again so I can hear your voice behind me in the empty hall saying my name, and when I turn around hear you say “Happy birthday,” with a smile on your lips. Is it bad that I’m in a perfectly happy relationship and yet I still think of you? I still smile when I see you play tennis, I still find myself drifting off into space thinking of our past memories, our happy times.
Looking back I know that I was oblivious alot. That it was me enjoying myself and you just kind of there. But it doesn’t change the fact that the feelings I had I feel I’ll never feel again.
I just miss you. I miss your smile. I miss your tan lines. I miss waking up to your instant messages. I miss your morning phone calls, when you’d realize I was asleep so you would insist on letting me go, even though I’d beg for you to stay. I miss sitting on my porch swing and listening to the same music over and over again that reminded me of you. I miss my family picking on me at my family reunion because you called me twice.
I missed you. I miss you. I’ll always miss you. I loved you. I love you. I’ll always love you.
I just wish you missed me back, and I just wish you loved me back.
